Sorry, I Can't Today

     I get nervous when people call, so I just don't answer.
     And I will never set my voice-mail to "Hello you've reached ________ please leave a message," because I sound like a 5 year old when my voice is being recorded.
     Chances are I'm afraid of you.

     If you desperately need me then stop by my house.
     But I would hate that, and have my brother tell you I'm in the shower or someplace other than my room.

I'll just keep looking at the cracks in this ceiling, Discovering what they are shaped like and how they ever became so tangled.
 
     My Mom has already asked what I want for Christmas.
     I told her confidence.